I don't understand why all your topic revolves all around that. It seems to serve the purpose of provoking guilt, and then retaliation and then comes the threat. Some things never change.

I was never solid to start with and sometimes I think I know the reason why. I love my solitude. I don't mind if it's all quiet and nobody says a word. I think it is beautiful to just sit down in the midst of a crowd. It is noisy all around and yet the lone person would sit there silently. Then she would lay her head down and find that her breath and life has quiet slipped away. The unpenetrable silence. How so very beautiful