All my penpals are gone! My German penpal is gone goodness knows where, and i really wouldn't mind talking all about politics. jsut reply me. and my Finnish penpal hasn't sent me a letter for a long long time. she said she would send it soon, but i haevn't gotten it after a month! and the rest never replies. ugghh

Today's English lesson was practically free time. Daner and me were listening to jokes told by Kirsten. and we were laughing and slapping tables. ( sounds pretty crude eh?) well, at least i was the one slapping tables. hehe..suddenly got reminded of debates.
I feel so bored suddenly, i want to do something extraordinary...so bored.....wah!

I absolutely LOVE the Band of Brothers book! It's one of the most interesting book I've read this year (other than TCoMC). and it is so darn funny. i was laughing practically all the time. oh well, call me sick or whatever, but there was one part about this German who died with his hand extended. and this American soldier went over and shook the hand and stepped on the stomach and the corpse went"bleh!" I read the passage three times over and at the third time, I laughed and laughed and laughed and I couldn't stop laughing. geez...i feel so evil...
I watched the Last of the Mohicans today. I love that one too. I've always liked Alice and Uncas from the start and so i was so so sad when both of them died. Didn't cry though. but still thought it's a beautiful show. I kept thinking Of Mel Gibson when i saw Hawkeye (wait, i hope i got the name right) maybe it's all that war stuffs. but i thought the guy acting as Hawkeye would do better as William Wallace. Gibson can continue directing, but he should leave his face out of the camera. no offence, Mel...

Today i saw an accident. Well, you see, I just finished bathing. and i was going to wear my clothes when i heard the sound of the fire engine. Egad, i thought, a fire! i wore my clothes at the fastest time ever, not caring whether the curtains were drawn or not. Then, i ran to the window and opened it wide. Lo and Behold, I saw smoke smoke smoke comign from the Sloane Court direction. I ran to my mp3 player, took out the batteries and put the batteries in my digital camera and snapped lots of pics. I couldn't take anything much though, it was all dark and i was a bit too far away. I don't really know what happened, but maybe this car knocked the kerb or something and caught on fire. wah wah..i have never seen anything like this before. There was the ambulance, the fire engine and the police car. This is a real emergency, not like our school's fake one. then, i saw this person being carried into the ambulance. and there was the red fire engine car. I was getting super excited, until my mother told me i should be praying for those who r injured. then i remembered, oh ya ho, this is an accident, there are people injured.

The smell of smoke is still so strong...wah...
I still can't believe my rabbits are GAY! it can't be true...

Went to church just now. and there's a French fair in PS. bought this cookie from Normandy. yum.

The O.C. is one fun show to watch. And Ben McKenzie is pretty cool. When you look at his pic, he's not cute or anything. but when you watch the show, there's a certain charm about him. and that look on his face. and he acts as some tough guy and that's just so cool. there's also this dorky guy, who's pretty funny to see. and there's all the fun parties. This is such a refreshing change to boring old Smallville. Smallville is nice when u first watch it, then it gets so draggy and u get so irritated with Clark and Lana. Now i can watch both American Idol and the O.C.
Cheers for John Stevens and Ben Mckenzie!
By the way, when is I capture the castle coming out?

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! my dad told me that Dimple is a girl! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!he said he called his
friend over and the friend said Dimple's a girl. AHAHAHAHAH! AHAHHAHA! hysterical can't stop laughing
ahahahahaha. no wonder they never had a baby. AHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Dimple...i can't get used to it. aahhh, he'll i mean she;ll i mean.......waaaaaa Dimple boy! i don't want
to start calling u Dimple girl. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

wATCHED passion of the Christ. wah, my maid and mom was crying like crazy. but so stupid, u see the thing
is pirated and it suddenly end. no credits. nothing. just plok, eh, no more. so maddening u noe.
and ahh it's so painful..i was hiding my face in the pillow during the crucification.

Dimple is a girl...wahahahhahahahaha

I don't understand. I don't know what a lot of people are thinking. but i don't understand, why is it that somehow i always feel whatever Kirsten is feeling.
I still remember last time. We had that free period before chapel. and everyone had crowded around Rini to talk about ghost stories. And I saw Kirsten trying to talk. She talk a bit. Then, suddenly, another girl at the far end started telling a story, all attention turned to that girl. everyone faced her. And Kirsten trailed off. I couldn't remember what i was doing. but i saw that look on her face. and i thought: i've felt like this many many many times. people just don't listen to you.
But of course, sometimes i am guilty of that crime. Sorry!
Well, these days, Kirsten addressed her blog to a particular unknown person. And i felt so...i don't know. Because i just felt the very same feeling. The day before cross country i cried and i couldn't sleep. I felt upset with someone. Because i felt our friendship was not working out. I felt ignored. I find that both of us are so different. And i felt that sometimes the words of that person hurt so so much. And when i thought about it, it just cuts cuts deeply into my heart. I remember the days where we used to be so close. i mean, last time we had so much fun doing things together. and now, i feel like that person only asks me to do things together when that person had no one elso to go with. and i felt that that person no longer enjoys being with me that much. and i resent being different. I just wanted to give up the whole friendship. and i just suddenly wished that person will ignore me altogether, so i don't have to face anything hurtful anymore. and of course, after crying it out i couldn't sleep. and went to cross country bleary eyed.
The hurt is all gone now. All. The both of us just started talking as normally and somehow, when we do that, i feel so happy. and well, i don't feel the gap.
I HAVE THE SUDDEN URGE TO LEARN GERMAN.

Me and Kiki had a big and exciting debate with some indian guy online about whether Hitler was good or not. I was practically accusing Hitler of every crime available adn the Indian guy was defending him like crazy. Kirsten sometimes supported hilter, sometimes accused Hitler.
That was fun anyway!

I AM BORED!!

I watched The Sound of Music as a kid. and when i was a kid, i was really stupid
and of course i couldn't appreciate the show at all. well, yesterday, i watched it.
and my gosh, i found it so so so fabulous! it's such a beautiful show and i think that
modern moviemakers these days are not able that type of beauty and warmth anymore. I just
like everything about it. The Music and the bonding. And not to mention Austria is so
beautiful! and i just like the way the children learn music from Maria. I would so so
love to run around the hills, learning music, having so many siblings. looking at that
movie gave me a irrepressible yearning to go to the hills and sing!

And the children are so cute! wow, i don;t know when this movie was made, it looks like
the type that was made jsut when i'm born or something. but i think all the children
are lovely. And i thought Friedrich was pretty cute too. And Rolfe! i like Rolfe! I know
he's a good boy deep inside! he's just corrupted by those darn Nazis. The first part where
he and Lisa danced and sang was jsut so beautiful. i was just so marvelled by that scene,
it is full of innocence and love, and suddenly you just want to believe that, yes! Love is
a many splendoured thing, love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love!
Suddenly i feel like writing a story after watching that, suddenly everything seems
so beautiful. and I WANT TO GO TO AUSTRIA!!!

Hahahah! I took the personality test and this was the result.

You are a Bad Girl

Who's a prim goody two-shoes? Not you! A little bit jaded and oh-so-experienced, you're the opposite of good; in a phrase — very, very bad. When you watch Grease, you root for Rizzo, not Sandy. Motorcycle clubs and tattoo parlors know you by name — you've been there and done that. Never one to say no to a good time, you'll stay out late and party till dawn. Guys dig your spontaneity, sense of adventure, and leather-dominated wardrobe. They swarm to you like bees to honey. Still, no matter how tough you are on the outside, you can get very tender around the right guy. You don't have to talk about your feelings with everyone you meet, though. That touchy-feely stuff doesn't really fly with you. Men admire you for being a sharp-minded, rebellious gal who knows how to let loose and bring out their wild side.

You're right! How very untrue!

I think i offended someone. oops
But no, i don't mean to.

I think i'm over sensitive. but sometimes i can't help it. But i tend to be offended by things easily. no, i do not wish to talk about this.
But i get so upset sometimes. Two nights ago, i was just crying in bed. i hate it. i think it's ok for other people to cry. but i cannot cry. i don't know why. I don't think i'm supposed to cry. i don't think i deserve to feel sad. well, true. there are so many other people worse off than me, why am i crying then.

Today i saw how poor Myanmar was. the poor children and teenagers there. sometimes i do so very much want to help, but i feel so unable to do that.you know, like there's so many things you want to buy and yet you want to help these people so much. and when you buy something you feel selfish because some people out there are starving. and my WVI money is still rotting in my piggy bank. There's around 30 something dollars there. but i think it's so little. when i can earn my own money, i want to adopt a child. not as in bring a child home, but you pay a fee very month to feed this child somewhere. but i can't afford that now.

Nowadays i feel so alone. and suddenly a lot of people starts to matter to me a lot. People like Kirsten and Vicki, they're probably my only close friends in school that i talk to most of the time. well, in fact i don't have any friends from outside the school, except for maybe my primary school friend, whom i haven't contacted for so long. And of course Lotta matters very much to me. I haven't received a mail from her for very long, but i called her during the one week holiday, so that makes up. Actually me and her are very different, like the type of songs we listen to. She's just like any normal teenager, she listens to those normal songs. and she sent me two cds of it, which i listened to over n over again. and of course, for me, i like...hehe...Bagpipes!! in fact, i think i'm over-reliant on bagpipes to relieve my stress. and of course in our fashion n a lot of other things, we're very different. but i'm so so glad we bond so well. I hope she will come and visit me soon.

But there's a question in my head. is it true when two people are really different, they cannot get along? I do know i'm very different from a whole lot of people. I was talking with my second bro online the other day. i realise in the family, i'm the most similar to him. We both LOVE Braveheart. he's more crazy about it, in fact, he's watched it 3 times on tape, 3 times on TV, 3 times on DVD. Great eh? and he likes bagpipes too. but i suppose i'm more crazy in that aspect. and he told me to watch the Last Samurai. Sorry for the interruption, anyway...oh, me n me bro were talking and i asked him, what would you do when you see a spider? He said, shoo it away? i told him i will talk to it. in fact, i befriended a spider and called him Tobey McSpidey. Ahahaha!
I have actually quite a number of friends in school, but we aren't very close. i suppose it;s bcos i'm pretty different from them, huh.but i actually believe two different people can be friends. if not, how can Lotta and me click? < oh my gosh, John stevens is not in the bottom three, thankkkk goodness!!> My bro says it's ok to be different, because he asks me, what is normal? i say like the rest, like the same taste. but my bro says, if u don't like it and you try to like it, that'll be following. and no, i don't intent to follow. i like bagpipes, you don't like it, fine, who cares. as long as i like it. i think my second bro is really cool. well, maybe cos u want to know any good games n good movies, just ask him, and since his taste n mine r pretty similar i get pretty good stuffs.

JOHN STEVENS IS MY AMERICAN IDOL! :)