WOOH! I love sausages! As you can see... the sausages are on the fry now.. YUM!

Tomorrow's GP exam. Feel nothing about it as usual. just hope.. I WON'T GET A STOMACHACHE like the other time!! A wee bit sick of studying, which is bad, cos honestly, i haven't really studied a whole lot. I've just been writing notes that's all. hehe..

Got the sudden urge to eat ice cream........

Anyways, I really hope to go to Marche before the Oktoberfest things ends!! SAUSAGES!!! OKTOBERFEST!! O_O!! I'm thinking of going there after exams end... dunno still have or not. Someday i shall go to Munich and drink beer and eat sausages! Yummy! and hopefully by then, I can speak German already. =P

Wondering if I can pass History.. i guess i'll just try me best.. though International History can get a whole lot confusing! I miss the Heil Hitler days!! I'm not in the exams mood currently, but ah well.. I shall party after it ends man. :D Baccardi party! Shall get my bro to take me to the Irish pub.

So much food in one entry.. i must be hungry and thirsty (which I am)

I woke up this morning and was looking through the letters n got a pleasant surprise.

I GOT MY TOEFL RESULTS BACK!!

turns out they sent it from Malaysia.... no wonder.. so fast. hehe... but the score was like sooo small. it's like on a tiny corner on the paper. At first i thought there wasn't even a score there.

SO, here's the results

Listening: 28 (ARGH!! If I was concentrating and not so nervous at first, i could've gotten full marks!!)
Structure/Writing: 28
Reading: 30
Essay rating: 5.5 (OHMICROD!! I tot that was the trashiest piece of essay ever written and they gave me on o.5 marks away from full marks!!! O_O SO SURPRISING!!)

TOTAL SCORE: 287

HIHI... that's higher than what i wanted.. so YAY!

Hehe.. for this month I seemed to have developed special interest in Chinese class. especially since my old Chinese teacher is back. And motivated by Irene, I've been doing some extra Chinese work as well. (when others are mugging for stuffs like history or economics...) Anyways, was rather motivated by the marks. I got 75!!! That's like O_O for Chinese. and i actually got full marks for summary (that's like IMPOSSIBLE!!) which i was actually doing during Lit lecture. (oops!)

I'm quite worried for my GP. seems like my English standard has dropped considerably ever since i got to JC. Suddenly I'm speaking tons more English than i ever did in SMSS. I think i have forgotten how to write in English! I'm even finding trouble writing "love" now!! I guess all that Nazi story writing in the past was a form of practice. Now i hardly write anything to the extent that I've forgotten how to write!!

Blast those mosquitoes! WIsh they would stop biting me! I just sat here for 5 mins for goodness sake.

Anyways... after History consultation today.. I FEEL A GREAT SENSE OF... PANIC!!!!!!!! AHHH! It's like i'm totally clueless man. Everything's SO confusing! I'm like totally blank when it come to the globalisation of the Cold War. How dreadfully confusing! It's no wonder I failed that test on the Vietnam War. It's so confusing!

The Vietnam War has got me thinking. One time, I was doing this quiz on which political figure are you or something of that sort. and there was one that goes like this: You are Ho Chi Minh. You are evil.. etc.
and I was like... No, that is not true! Not that I am a fervent supporter of communism or anything of that sort. But it is a gross misperception to think that Ho is evil just because many died in the Vietnam War. it's not his fault! I bet the Person is American anyways. But I think people should be re-educated about the fact that just because someone is your enemy doesn't mean he is evil. Moreover, All Ho wanted was independence. I see nothing wrong with that, considering how disgusting a colonial master the French can be at times. Basically, i find the whole Cold War rather pointless. and the superpowers were kinda busybodies themselves to get involved in one country that is just fighting for freedom. Who cares about communism or democracy? All people want are peace, food, shelter... they don't care what kind of system their govt is as long as they're happy! WHo in this world would be happy if your country is in war??

I think it's tragic! This world is a very nasty place. I think Vietnam would be so much more prosperous than it is now if things have been different. According to my SEAsian Hist readings, Vietnam had all the necessary factors to industrialise unlike some other colonies. But the French didn't allow them (surprise surprise!) and the French were the most restrictive colonial power. Any sane person would want to boot them out of the place if they had the chance.

What if the French had been a nicer colonial master? What if the Americans never intefered? It's kinda mystifying to think of what would happen but it's all so pointless now. Vietnam is the way it is now and honestly, there's nothing anyone can really do about it. Sometimes History can get so depressing. Do people actually learn from history? Isn't that the purpose? why bother memorising facts? Aren't you supposed to learn from the past and apply them to the present and future? Apparently not. Nobody ever learnt anything from history. It's human nature. We just love making the same old mistakes.

After unsuccesfully trying to study for days, i went for the Forced method.

I took food and water and locked myself in the room. It lasted for oh well.. 2 hours. It was good as it lasts anyways. I shall lock myself in longer next time.

and I've been watching some nice trailers.

-Chronicles of Narnia
-Elizabethtown
-Pride and Prejudice
-Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
-Aeon Flux
-King Kong

OUCH!! the stupid phone just rang and I ran to the room to get it and it was total darkness and i banged right into the door and hurt my toenail!!

ANyways, i can't wait for the Chronicles of Narnia!! I've been waiting for it all my life. i remembered the first book I picked up as a kid was Prince Caspian. From then on, I've read all 7 books 3 times.. Unfortunately..i sitll forgot the story. Too bad I'm older than the kids now. Used to be their age when I read them books.

and i watched the King Kong trailer in German for kicks. hihi.. it's fun seeing Adrian Brody speak German. The sets are very similar to Lotr.. plus orc loooking creatures do appear sometimes.

Stupid toe still hurts. I shall never run when the phone rings again. stupid door.

I'M A FAILURE!!

*sigh* I'm gonna flunk my promos! I'm not studying. Everytime I sit down I end up staring blankly ahead. I'm trying sometimes for Economics, but it's way beyond me. and i have absolutely no more motivation to study for HIstory. Ever since I flunk that test, i never really wanted to bring out my history notes again. I know when you fail, it's supposed to motivate u to work harder and ace something. But I don't know, i feel like I don't know how to study it anymore. And I used to be able to go through the readings and understand some things, now my brain isn't even concentrating as I scan through the readings. Suddenly, it's all meaningless to me. I just feel.. Heck, do people really learn from History? Look at all the countries now, do they even take note of the lessons of HIstory? In fact, some of them are learn wrongly from history. After WW2 they get so uptight about little things and caused a whole lot of conflict in return. and then these conflicts lead to more conflicts and the cycle goes on and on and on. How laborous. That's why i never liked politics. I'd rather leave it to em politicians to quarrel amongst themselves while I'll just my little life. Wish we're hermits sometimes eh?

BLAH! I always feel like this when exam's coming. BUt it's true. Everyone's working their butt off and I'm sitting here wondering on a lot of things. IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME! They say when you work hard for something, you will get results. Most of the time it's true. But sometimes you can only try so hard, get nothing in return and feel disappointed. it doesn't apply to me anyways. I don't deserve results, because I don't work! I'm rotting........

Thank goodness my CD players out of batt. Once I turn on the Braveheart soundtrack, I'll be sucked into a dream and i'll never come out.

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Oh look! I'm Disney Princess Ariel. and guess what?? that would mean my Disney prince is ERIC! :D Ariel and Eric. great eh?

I think I've became a worse student when I got to JC. I'm more rebellious than ever now. ANd that's bad. :(

I've never really dared to be defiant in the past, and even if I felt a great anger, I will manage to supress it all I can. This year, I seem to be unleashed. haha.. I'm becoming brutally honest. Well, just to say that I feel remorse over what I did that i thought was a little insolent. She's a nice person and I don't feel any anger/hatred or anything of that sort towards her. I guess I've just been a little cheeky and talked back a little. which i felt bad afterwards cos she's a nice person after all. So, after that I went home and read through the book like i promised. THough it isn't really effective bcos i'm such so bad at concentrating. It's not that i don't want to listen in class, but sometimes i just can't help but tune out. Well, i shall have to do away with that habit. One day I shall be studying HOSPITALITY and I'm gonna concentrate hard and be more SOCIAL.

ME? Social? seems hard to believe yah. I can be the most anti-social person you've met at times. Especially when I'm PO-ed. Oh boy, you better not cross my path and i duly apologise for my terrible temper when i do shoot off at you. and I get tired soo easily. It's like you drag me shopping for 2 hours and I'll be dying already. and when I'm tired, i tend to just shut my mouth and quit talking. Which is bad cos ppl will think i'm in a bad mood and when they talk to me i'll just give them the i'm-tired-don't-talk-to-me look. hahaha...Honestly, when i'm tired, last thing i want to do is open my mouth.

Rather worried about my promos.. have been flunking my tests. and I'm extremely upset cos I flunk History. History has always been the subject where i push myself the hardest, whether I like it or not. It's just a legacy world war 2 hist lessons in sec school left behind. I just have to work my ass off and do it man. unfortunately, i tend to be rather stupid and I FLUNKED! Oh boy, if i failed History in sec 4, i would have physically tortured myself to death. THank goodness it's only International HIstory. Honestly, if it's ww2 hist, i think i might just kill myself i flunk. it sounds stupid but I set extremely high standards for that one.

Well, trying to study now but it's not proving to be very productive. and I'm always feeling tired. Today I'm better cos I left school earlier and rested. THe past few days i just felt so drained and my heart was palpitating abnormally.

I CAN'T WAIT TILL:
-exams end 6 OCT!!
-I get my TOEFL results

I'm waiting for the day where i Send my application and get admitted to DVC! I'll be rocking that day man!

PP came over for a short while yesterday to pass me my present! :D thankee. I love it. and we were eating Japanese curry and playing DDR. hee hee...so fun. and at night we were crazily discussing about the NT/PP story. Afterwards, I was happily talking to this Italian and we talked the whole night about CHINESE FOOD!! got so hungry after that. He even put on his webcam just to show me all the snacks/noodles/sweets/sauce he got from the Chinese shops. hahaa funny

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WOOOOOOOOOOOH!!! I'm done with my TOEFL!!! HURRAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I had so many bad omens yesterday i thought that I'd be refused admission today or something. got extra worried and all. and i dreamt a horrible dream of worms in my clothes. EWWWWWWWWW

Anyways, i wasn't refused admission. but something DID go wrong. i was supposed to write this statment bfore the test, and below was actually the carbon copy or something. but i didn't noe. so i shifted all the papers. when i finished writing.. to my horror.. the paper below, all the writing went sideways and completely out of the line. AH HECK! The person didn't say anything anyways. such things always happen to me one. I remember.. once during O levels.. while pasting the sticker thingy, i didn't do it properly and to my shock, all the ink from the sticker started coming out. I was like OH GOSH OH GOSH WHAT TO DO... it turned out okay anyways.. haha

The test was.. okay. I was such a nervous wreck that i couldn't do listening properly. the short conversations were okay cos i could concentrate. but for the long conversation i got a bit nervous and the first and second conversation completely escaped me. When i came to the question i was like ..WHAT? i didn't hear!! i dunno!! but for subsequent ones, i guess it was okay.

Structured was... well rather tricky. I know one of my mistakes already. stupid me. should've put the other one. I knew that it was wrong. but AHH SHUCKS! but i guess i was feeling rather heck care by the time i was answering the structured questions. then i had a 5 min break. gayly went to the toilet to talk to myself. hahaha.. cos nobody was inside. so i was just talking aloud to myself. like OH GOSH i think i'm going to die. blablala.. stared at myself in the mirror and said, let's go. then went back and took the rest of the test. Did the compre.. it wasn't too bad. as usual, i was rather heck care about it. Half the time, i just read and when answering the question can't be bothered to refer back to the passage. read thru it once and submitted it. can't be bothered to check more. and i finished half an hour early for this bit. hahahaa...

the essay is HORRRRIBBLE!!! totally boring topic. Something about there's a plan to build a movie theater in my neighborhood and do i support it or not.. HMMPH i wrote super short cos i dunno wad to write plus i was running out of time.

anyways, i got the average marks. Here goes:
Listening: 28
Structured: Forgot the range
Comprehesion:30 (if this is the real thing.. I GOT PERFECT SCORE FOR THIS BIT!!)
Essay: ???
Total range: 233-290

My aim: 266. 250 ++ is okay la.

Anyways, i happily finished everything and came out. (i was probably the first to scoot out of the test centre) then got home happily and found that i was LOCKED OUT cos my maid was gone dunno where and i didn't bring keys. waited outside for 45 mins and got so fed up and unbearably hot. couldn't stand it anymore. i climbed to the second floor, crawled out through a side window, balanced myself on some window sill, crossed over to the other side and crawled into my house window and jumped in. VOILA! I'm officially a burglar.. okay.. thank goodness none of my neighbours saw me. It was fun too. I think i've gotten over my fear of heights ever since climbing that web thingy. Being high up makes me feel excited.. WOOT! I feel so free. Unfortunately.. second floor isn't very high.